Redemption

I redeemed myself from reaching a low point in parenting.   Bailey accepted my apology and commented that he really didn’t remember me saying that he was “stupid”.   All that shame for nothing.  Oh well, I was accountable and that is all I am trying to teach my boys.   Being that person who…

Not My Finest Hour

It is 12:45 am and the only reason that I am up is because I am controlled by two Basset hounds who must go outside.     I stagger around trying to get my eyes in focus.  As I open the door to let them out, I am fixated on Bailey’s bedroom door.    It…

Team Player

I have always been a team player, but today I have a voice.    My assumption was that in order to participate fully as a group, I went with the directions of the leader and didn’t ask questions or assert my dislike or discomfort for items on the agenda.  I was silent.  It took me…

Out Of The Ordinary

When we were attending Bryce’s ring ceremony, there was a question asked by the president of the school, “How many of you are experiencing this moment for the first time?”.  There were many hands in the air and I was wondering if I should put mine up.  You see, this is the first experience with…

Here We Go…..Again

If you are a regular follower of my blog, you probably read my witty parody on Mother’s Day last year about why this holiday needs to retire.    It isn’t because my kids aren’t adoring or that I feel neglected.  It is because the holiday sets up unrealistic expectations plus it magnifies the pain that…

Empowerment

In the haze of a world ignoring the feminine presence, I am so grateful for my positive experience in my corner of the world.    I have a new set of glasses.  Everything around me is open and limitless.   Why, you ask?  The answer is simple……two strong women. After I was sent on my…

Then This Happened……

Tonight, Bryce is getting his senior ring.   While I am in a state of “how the hell did this happen so fast”, I am also swimming in pride.   Children are like clay.  You spend years molding them and then you stick them in the kiln to reveal the final product.  Now, I am…

This and That

I think one of the biggest obstacles for me to overcome is my over sense of responsibility to other people.   Whatever your issue was, I eagerly latched on to offer a solution – because I always knew what was best.  I would obsess over your problems.  Often, I would offer you a fix and…

Expect the Unexpected

Raising teenagers can be daunting, hair-raising, and quite confusing.   It is the game of expecting the unexpected.   While my teenage boy is literally a 40 year old man trapped in a 17 year old body, he does possess traits that make me want to scream. This Saturday is his Junior Formal.   A…

The Pattern

This morning I was minding my own business.  Sitting in the back of church while the ceremonial Catholic process was in motion, daydreaming about what I was going to pack for our trip in a month to Germany, and periodically, tuning into the message.   This is my process in church as sometimes the message…