Remembering

Today is a day that America will never forget.  As I travel back in time, it is clear how I have changed since the day terrorism touched our lives.    My father was still alive and a very big part of my life.  Bailey was six year old.  I was on a mission to fight…

Balance Beam

I will say, that this emotional cleanse, has really given me new insight to my being.    It has caused me to dig deep inside of myself to figure out what triggers my reactions.  This has allowed me to journal and meditate on what works and doesn’t work for me anymore.    It definitely is…

Amends

If I have learned anything in the last few years, it is the process of being accountable.   For a very long time, it was easy for me to put the blame on something or someone else.   Being wrong or making a mistake wasn’t the issue.  The true issue was the reaction received from…

Hidden Blessings

Normally, on a Monday, I am less than thrilled to get the week started.  Today was different.  I woke up renewed with a sense of peace that something had changed.  Then I realized it was ME!    I have had a shift of perception.  Which means this emotional cleanse is really working.   For the…

Lasting Memory

During this time on my emotional cleanse, I am reminded of a person who inspired me with his words and actions.   My Dad was a man who unselfishly provided unconditional love.  When I screwed up (and I did a lot of screwing up), he always had my back.Today would have been his 85th birthday,…

Feelings vs Facts

So, I am beginning to feel the effects of the cleanse and, frankly, it is uncomfortable.   Upon gathering with a group of friends, I became aware of my over sensitivity to everything said.  There were moments where I felt less than and not really apart of the conversation.   Then the over-thinking and analyzing…

Out of Sight

Like any diet or cleanse, if it is out of sight, it might not be completely out of mind, but it allows us not to be tempted.  In my case,  with my emotional cleanse, if the relationships aren’t dangling in front of me, I am generally content and aren’t dwelling on them.  So, when I…

Truthfully

Recently, as I share my quest for emotional cleanliness, I was told to have compassion for those that I struggle with during this time.   Ugh, was my reaction as compassion was the last emotion I was feeling.    It is a struggle to be compassionate to those that challenge you the most.    My…

The Eye of the Beast

Just like any “diet”, this cleanse is making me cranky as I am highly alert to the behaviors that quicken my heart and sicken my stomach.   The funny thing is the behaviors are coming from me.   Since I am being vigilant about the relationships I am detaching from, I am seeing inappropriate behavior…